Showing posts with label life. Show all posts
Showing posts with label life. Show all posts

Monday, March 17, 2014

Eight Months in the Capitol

I have done a very poor job keeping up with this blog.  I think it is mainly out of laziness, however I will admit I cannot write unless I am inspired (I’m an artist dammit!). Today, we got snowed in again.  The weather here is a far cry from anything I’ve ever experienced.  I will admit I ready for Spring.  Despite the winter cold, D.C. has been a great city to live in.

This was taken this morning by the Huffington Post.  Why, God?


It is hard for me to put my finger on everything but D.C. is one of the most diverse cities in the United States.  With a population that is 50% black, I (and other Caucasians) am in the minority, which I can honestly say has been a breath of fresh air for me.  I come into contact with people who have had very different lives than I have, and yet I am able to find similarities and common ground with many of them.  Most of the people I’ve have gotten to know well have been those who have interned at World Vision.  The thing I love most about Washington D.C.  is that people come here from all over the world. 

I have a couple crazy stories about people I have met at the various free events I’ve attended (these events pretty much are my social life).  At one event at the Canadian embassy, I had the pleasure of chatting up a Turkish diplomat for around an hour.  Only in Washington D.C. could you bump into somebody like that.  I also have had the weirdest occurrences of meeting people who know a mutual friend from Westmont or Dallas.  It is indeed a very small world after all (Thanks Walt Disney!)

Washington D.C. is also extremely unique because it is a city of culture clash.  D.C. is where North meets the South and East meets the West.  This has nothing to do with geography; it is because of the population within the city.  Because it is the nation’s capitol, D.C. has people from every corner of the nation and every political ideology, culture, religion, and race.  This creates a city that is extremely diverse, but also (to the chagrin of the rest of the country) very divided.  However, most if not all of your politicians live outside the city.  In fact, if you run into somebody who is white and middle/upper class, you can bet they live outside D.C. as well.  This is because the public schools in Washington D.C. are extremely subpar.

Like virtually every major city in America, D.C.’s public school system is a mess.  This is exacerbated by the existence of many highly ranked private schools (that cost each around 40 grand a year).  So those who can afford them, go to them leaving the public schools to fend for themselves.  The middle class moves outside the city and goes to public schools in Northern Virginia or Bethesda.  That being said, a lot of public school management and teaching innovations are being developed in the public schools in D.C. 

This was taken back in October when the weather was still great.


As for my own experience, World Vision could not have been a better place to end up.  I am truly heartbroken that they don’t have the room or budget to hire me onto the advocacy team.  Non-Profit problems.  The advocacy team here does a lot of great work.  They are responsible for engaging the U.S. government (both the bureaucracy and politicians) on matters of international aid, development, health, agriculture, human trafficking, and disaster relief.  Last week we spent two days holding a conference on global access to water sanitation and then met with many congressional offices to ask for support on a bill going through the House (H.R. 2901) that essentially will require USAID to spend its allotted funds on water and sanitation programs in the poorest countries in the world instead of middle income countries like Egypt and Iraq which already have extensive water infrastructure (this has been going on and WV wants the focus to be on the countries with greatest need).  The great thing about lobbying for issues like clean water is that nobody is against clean water for the poor and kids.  It is mainly just a matter of awareness and urgency.  I have learned a lot from my two internships at World Vision, and it will be hard to leave.  But, I am looking forward and am excited about the road ahead.  My plan is to intern on Capitol Hill this summer.  It doesn’t pay (story of my life in DC) but in order to have a career in foreign policy advocacy, one must begin on the Hill.  At least, that is what everyone is telling me.  So that is my plan, and I’m going for it. 

After eight months here I am having a hard time imagining myself anywhere else.  It doesn’t feel like a whole lot has happened, and I guess in the whole scheme of things compared to the changes of college, it hasn’t.  However, I feel like a completely different person than I was in September.  I have also been very surprised at who I’ve kept up with.  I have been able to talk to some people from Westmont that I didn’t think I would ever hear from again.  It is good to catch up and hear what is going on in other peoples lives, and for the most part everyone is doing well and going through life at their own paces.  Of course, as time goes on people will start to text and call less and less.  Then, before you know it we will start sending those god-awful Christmas cards to each other (though now that I think about it maybe we will settle with Facebook stalking). 


Anyways, I felt the urge to write this so I guess I will put this up on the ol’ blog.  I wish I had more pictures to put up but I’m sorry to say that without my personal photographers Eric Patterson and Shanan Lau I just don’t have the opportunity to capture the infamous moments of my life.  I’ve already started hanging out with people I meet with nice cameras so I can become friends with them, and I will once again be back to my spot as the envy of the Facebook world.

I took this the day I moved in.  My back was against the wall so this gives you a good idea of how small my room is.



I plan on putting up some stuff on Syria, the state of global development, and maybe even Ukraine though I feel like that one might be a dead horse.


Wednesday, July 31, 2013

Every Dream Must Come to an End

I have dreaded this week for over a year now.  I've known for a while now that my future does not reside in Santa Barbara.  I have found that to be a frustrating truth to swallow.  I love this town.  It isn't for everybody, but for me it represents home.  It is the type of place I want to live at the end of my life.  Even though Santa Barbara itself is wonderful, I think that more than Santa Barbara I am going to miss the people I've come to love here.  Westmont’s most important role in my life was introducing me to people who have changed my life.  Part of my heart will always reside in Santa Barbara.

The biggest challenge I have faced these last 7 months has been trying to figure out life after Westmont.  This challenge (life after college) presents itself very differently to everybody. Many people find themselves returning home for work.  Many of my friends back home are experiencing this.  It works out perfectly for them, as they are close to family and old and new friends.  Some stay in Santa Barbara, and they have college friends or significant others they are preparing to spend a life with.  For me, the next step after college has always been this hulking mass of fog.  I have been staring at it approaching me for over a year.  Those who were walking this journey with me, my friends and family, have stopped behind or gone their own route, and I find myself between them and the misty unknown. 

I feel like I am at a great crossroads in life.  The biggest question in my head is how will I connect everything that has transpired these last 22 years of my life with the future?  For almost a year now, I have felt an inexplicable draw to Washington D.C. even when I knew very little about it.  D.C. feels like a whole new start.  Who am I going to be?  The only things I have besides the shirt on my back are my dreams, passion, and faith.  They have become my torch and compass as I enter the mist.  As someone who clings to certainty, I have attempted to make Washington D.C. into a place of certainty.  I have tried to imagine various future lives that in all honesty are not certain and are probably inaccurate in regards to how my life will actually turn out. 



It was serendipitous that the movie “The Great Gatsby” came out this past May.  It had been some time since I had read the novel by F. Scott Fitzgerald.  However, while watching the film with friends, it hit me like a brick wall that I had become obsessed with an idea just as the character Jay Gatsby had.  D.C. had become more than just a city to me.  It had evolved into my “green light” so to speak.  It was a representation of not just of an imagined future occupation, but who I wanted to become; a powerful, influential, successful individual.  Happy.  What I really was searching for was happiness in a fairy tale future instead of my present circumstances.  Instead of accepting my current state of limbo between a place and life I loved and one that I knew nothing about, I consumed myself with pursuing a Brooks that I deemed better.

A challenge that I have given myself is to embrace the uncertainty, discomfort, and solitude that will come with moving to a new big city.  I am still going to Washington D.C.  I can’t ignore my dreams and passions, and right now those are leading me to one place.  At the same time, I am preparing myself for a humbling next couple of years.  Instead of actively seeking out meaning in power and influence, my goal is to find meaning in loving others.  My time at Westmont has shown me how important having a good support base is.  I started becoming a person I was proud to be at Westmont, and I plan on continuing on that journey even as my surroundings change.

I can honestly say leaving Santa Barbara and the people I have come to love has been one of the scariest things I have gone through.  This summer has been hard on everybody in some way.  I truly believe that the bonds of close friendship and community forged here in this Southern California utopia will surpass geography and time.  I will always regard my time here with great fondness: from freshman year to senior year and my time living in a house with some of the greatest people I call friends.  It has been one hell of a ride.  I eagerly look forward to seeing how each one of your lives falls into place.





                                                                                   






                               

 











       








                                                 





I will leave you with a traditional Irish blessing.

May the road rise up to meet you.
May the wind be always at your back.
May the sun shine warm upon your face;
the rains fall soft upon your fields and until we meet again,
may God hold you in the palm of His hand.